Today marks one year since I left Christianity. It's always amazing how quickly a year goes by isn't it? I was hoping that by this time I would have done enough research such that I would be able to make a firm decision to either be an Atheist, a Liberal Christian or a Deist. This is not the case. I still have a lot of research to do. I've decided to call myself Agnostic for the time being. I consider Agnostic the default position for someone not making a positive or negative claim for the existence of a god. I may very well remain Agnostic for a long period of time because it really strikes me as the most honest position anyone can take. Do I know how we all got here? Nope. So the honest thing to say is "I don't know". I don't know if there is a God. The existence of a super, all-knowing intelligence seems unlikely, but then, the existence of space, matter and life arriving by pure chance also seems unlikely. It is quite a puzzle we all are left with.
I am currently reading "Why I became an Atheist" by J. Loftus and "Reasonable Faith" by W. Craig. Also, while commuting to and from work, I am listening to an audio reading of "The Grand Design" by Hawking and Mlodinow. All of these give me plenty of things to think about. Sometimes it feels like a curse to have to worry about things that most people hardly give much thought to. For those of you who are like me and wrestle with the big questions a lot, I have a challenge for you and for myself. Let's not forget to make the most of the time we have with the ones we love most. And don't forget to enjoy life as puzzling as it may be.
